Happy 21st Birthday...

To me!

So my birthday was yesterday, 4th of November 2009. That makes me...12 years old? Okay okay. I'm just pretending to suck at Maths because I can't accept the fact that I'm already 21. SERIOUSLY? Perangai macam kanak2 je.ngehh

Anyways, thanks for the wishes everyone! Whether it was via calls, messages or Facebook. I really appreciate it :))

Oh, thanks to my intern-mates! They organised a surprise party for me and Apan (since it was Apan's birthday too), but I couldn't make it! Seriously, sangat tak bajet korang nak wat celebration tu! I think this could be the first time ever that the birthday girl/boy didn't come to her/his own birthday party. I received a call from them though. Kesian Apan kena tinggal sorang2. Blushing gile die! Haha. Here's the birthday cake;

And because I didn't come, they saved a few pieces for me. So this is what was left of it;

Haha. I didn't get to see the cake. But it's okay. They left me two funny videos for me to watch. Nanti2 upload. Hee. But, honestly. Aku sangat terharu dengan korang ;)

Oh, one of my best friends, sent this cute card. Pakai POSLAJU tu. Tapi sampai sehari awal. Hehe. It's so cute. Terharu gak ;)

Eh, lupe plak! This year I got a very different kind of wish. I mean, the way it was communicated to me. This is a once-in-a-lifetime kind of opportunity...

(Please ignore the spelling error)

A wish from the Novell thingy-whatever-it-is-called! Kitorg kat sini takde internet. So, nak PM tak maen la GTalk2 ni. Pakai Novell ni jelah. Haha. Ni JAKUN namanya. Wish kat sini pon nak amek gambar. Hee. Please forgive the birthday girl, okay? She was just so excited ;)

Okay, so that's all from me. I gotta go packing. I'm going on an extended holiday this weekend, so I'll be taking a three-day leave until next Wednesday! So don't find me at the office. Can't wait to go!

'Til then, Toodles! :))

A Family Affair

Yesterday, I went out with my sister. We planned to watch Papadom. And the movie rocks! It was sooooooo damn funny! It was also quite sad. There were two scenes in particular that was really touching and I actually cried. The tears were flowing! If I were to rate this movie, I would give it a 10! I don't want to give spoilers for the movie, so don't forget to watch it, okay? I would love to watch it again, so don't for get to ajak me! Hehe.

Anyways, we arrived at Dataran Pahlawan at about 1.30pm and planned to watch the 2.40pm slot. But it was full! Darn it. So, we opted to watch the 5.20pm slot. That meant we had 4 hours to kill before the movie started. That was quite a wrong decision because I ended up shopping. Even with a limited budget, I managed to. Errh. I was supposed to save money for my trip next week! (Siyes tak sabar nak pegi!) Tapi takpe. It wasn't that much because I (konon2nye) was shopping for that trip. Bagi alasan tuk sedapkan hati. Haha. I bought an ear ring, a pair of sandals and my sister bought me a necklace for my upcoming birthday. Well, actually, I practically forced her to buy it for me. Hehe.

Due to the boredom we had to face waiting for that movie, we ended up cam-whoring in the dressing rooms.

After the movie, we waited for the rest of the family to come and we ended up eating at Oldtown. My sis took a picture of my dad using the sequence mode on my phone where it takes 18 photos in a row. This is one of them. The rest are my pictures of my dad making funny faces.

Oh, here's another interesting story. On Friday night, the whole family (minus my 19 year old brother) went to eat at...

I know. Ade branch kat Melaka dah skang! It's on the rooftop of Dataran Pahlawan. The food was okay but there was one downside. We ended being basah kuyup after a 'It's raining men!' moment. Haha. Tak tau ape kaitannya tapi memang hujan lebat gle la afterwards. So from being really really dry...

We ended up being up like this..

Well, the whole family did.

(My 17-year-old brother took the picture)

Don't blame the rain. Blame the location of the restaurant; an isolated island on the rooftop of DP. They should figure something out to solve this problem, or their customers will have to end up playing in the rain in order to go home, especially during this rainy season.

P.S. After the shopping spree (la sangat), I ended up with more things that I wanted to buy. I'll update my wishlist later ;)

Today at the Office

7.30 am - Arrived at my desk. Don't ask me why I came early. I just LOVE to.

7.30 - 8.00 am - Lalala-ing

8.00 - 8.30 am - Update my daily task; update spreadsheet

8.30 - 9.00 am - Sleeping (tapi dalam mimpi jelaa)

9.00 - 9.30 am - Konon nak stat buat projek yang baru dapat last week tu, tapi tak dapat ilham lagi

9.30 - 11.00 am - Message Nana sebab nak kaco die. Haha. Ngantuk gle. Terpaksa kaco orang. Hehe. Updating each other on stuff a.k.a gossip (la sgt. pasal diri sndiri je, and her recent holiday) While waiting for her messages, I do nothing. Just staring into space...

11.00 - 12.30 pm - Start doing a bit research on my project (finally!).

12.30 - 1.00 pm - Min datang melawat. Borak2 Berbincang pasal isu-isu penting

1.00 - 2.15 pm - Lunch at Ayamas with Kak Fiza, Non and Kaka. After that, stop by Cosway because the shops are just side-by-side (Ni dah jadi rutin dalam due minggu skali, everytime pegi Ayamas, sampaikn pekerja2 dkt Ayamas and Cosway dah kenal sape ktorg kut. Haha)

2.15 - 2.45 pm - Zuhur prayers

2.45 - 4.45 - Pergi charge phone yang abes bateri kat tempat Non. Alang2 tu, lepak2 sambil study pasal my project, borak2, and surf internet.

4.45 - 5.00 pm - Return to my office and prepare to go home

**Lalala-ing is another word for 'berangan' or 'mengelamun'

So, that was just another day at the office. It’s so random. I don’t do these things everyday.  Sometimes, my day isn’t as exciting as today, sometimes my day is more exciting than today. Sometimes, I gain a lot of knowledge, sometimes precious time is wasted. Now is the 22^nd week, and there is about 10 weeks more to go. I’m not sure whether I want my internship to end, or I want to go back to that god-forsaken place filled with *tut*and *tut* (Words were censored to avoid any misunderstanding because there is only one of each). Let's just try and 'enjoy' the little time that we have here, okay?

Ex-Best Friend

Dear You,

This is the second time in my life that I lost a best friend. I really treasured our friendship and really worshiped the ground that you walked on. Because I always thought of you to be 'one of a kind'. I have heard people say bad things about you but I'm not one to listen to what people say. I judged you based on our friendship, and I really really liked you. Your kindness, your thoughtfulness and your jokes.

I liked the fact that we shared a lot of common interests and I can just share anything that I want with you. You kinda understood me in ways other people didn't. We didn't know each other for a long time but it was like we were forever friends. I always thought of you as my best friend. I always wanted to make sure you always get what you wanted and that you were always happy and never sad.

But how could you do such a horrible thing? After all that we've been through. After all the secrets that we shared, the jokes we laughed together about, how could you? I never expected it from you. It could have been settled in a jiffy. It wasn't a complicated matter. You only made things worse. So how do you expect me to forgive you? I can't even accept you as a friend, let alone forgive you. I will never forgive you, even if the world ends tomorrow.

I know that I'm just supposed to forgive you, that it's not good to keep a grudge. That forgiving will help me forget and move on. But do you honestly believe that in forgiving you, I can accept what you did to me? You BACKSTABBED me. You USED me. You LIED to my face. You EMBARRASED me. Now matter how many times you explain to me, it's never gonna undo what you did. It's never gonna erase the bad thing that you did. The memory will fade away, but the pain will last forever.

Regards,
Ex-Best Friend @ Ex-Friend

raya sudah habis!

Monday was the last day of Syawal and now we're already into a new month. This year's Raya has got to be my most hectic one ever. There was an open house to attend to every weekend. Macam abang ipar Mya cakap masa malam marhaban tu, " Tengok, raya kat Johor sampai sebulan. Kat Kelantan 3 hari pon da cukup." This wasn't his exact words, this is just what I remembered, so forgive me if I'm wrong ye Mya?

This year, like every year, we balik beraya at Kuching, my mom's kampung. It was fun, because I get to see my cute little cousins, like this one:

SO CUTE, right? And so heavy! But I love him to bits! He loves me too! ;) Since he can't pronounce my name, he just calls me 'Kaka', you know like that cute footballer...

Okay, so he doesn't look that cute in this picture since he's sweaty and all and this picture is not up-to-date because he's playing for Real Madrid now, but just leave it like this, alright? He's not even supposed to be in the discussion. Lari dari topik pulak. In short, this was how my raya weekends went:

25/09/09

The weekend after we got back from Kuching, Nana, Epit, Zik Junior and Abu came to my house for an ad-hoc open house. (ad-hoc open house? Haha). Since both Nana and Epit were from over-the-sea, this was the only time they could come. But thanks for coming! Terharu SANGAT!

03/10/09-04/10/09

The next Saturday, my roommate since foundation second semester (nak gak cakap tu.hee), Ella, wanted to come to Malacca and at the same time, she ajak me to beraya kat KL to which I agreed to. So, she slept at my house on Friday night and we went open-house hunting the next day , from Mya and Odah's house to Syaji's house to Jibah's and finally Alia's house. Oh, lupe lak. Ktorg pegi beraya kt Midvalley gak, open house kt Chilli's. Hihi. That night, we went jalan2 kat downtown pulak. It was one hell of a day! We had a sleepover at Syaji's and I went to Izzah's open house on Sunday. Ended the day by gossipping with Mya for a few hours before heading home. Kan Mya kan? ;P

09/10/09-10/10/09
Friday was a public holiday for Melaka ( TYT's birthday) and since it fell on a Saturday, Friday was declared a holiday for my company (this is the ONLY reason why I like interning here). Mokte, together with Mat Yie and Hazwan, arrived at my house in the wee hours of Friday morning; sempat sembahyang Subuh at my house and then I took them out for breakfast. After that, the girls gossiped 'till Mokte felt sleepy while the guys headed to Agan's. Dalam pukul 5, I pegi bawak dorg jalan-jalan. Menara Taming Sari, River Cruise, Kota A'Famosa, Jonker Walk and Eyes on Malaysia. Just typical tourist hotspots. I never went to Jonker Walk before, so I was the most excited to go. I didn't actually know where it was x_X but we managed to find it. Sanggup jalan kaki dari MP kut (orang Melaka sure tau betapa jauhnya Jonker Walk and MP). Macam I plak yg pelancong kan?

The next day, was my open house. Tunggu orang2 jauh datang. Geng2 KL and Segamat. Unfortunately, the car from Segamat got involved in an accident. My room mate included; so she couldn't make it. I was quite bummed out. It was still a blast, though. I also ended up being a tour guide for Geng KL (Syaji, Odah, Mya and Bai) sbb dorg nak jalan2 pusing Melaka. Dahla baru bawak Mokte jalan smlm kan, tapi naseb baek dorang nak naek Menara Taming Sari (lagi!) je. If not, I seriously need to think of taking another degree. Tourism, probably. HAHA. (Ade ke degree tu?)

17/10/09-18/10/09
The last weekend of Raya took me to....Senawang! Dah lama GLE tak pegi rumah Dayah! I used to singgah2 at her house when she tumpang me from UTP. But since she has her own car now, dah jarang. Wuu. This is the first time in 5 months since all of us got to berkumpul as we were interning far from each other. After Dayah's open house, Mya, Sue and me departed for Batu Pahat, since there is a marhaban at Mya's house. This is the FIRST time JKD actually sampai ke kampung halamannya. After almost 3 years. So sad. Hee.

So, that ends my most hectic Raya ever! See you next year! (Raya, I mean)

my wishlist ;)

Just because I'm currently interning, I have this illusion that I'm so rich. And because of this illusion, I like to daydream about all the things that I want.

"Tolonglah kembali berpijak di bumi yang nyata. Awak tu pokai!"

Oops, that was me trying to talk sense into myself. But what 's wrong for a girl to dream, right? So, this is my wishlist:

        1.  Watch - preferably swatch. Hari tu, masa balek kampung, sume kedai jam pon singgah, kat airport2 skali pon singgah! Last2, my brother was the one who bought one (using his duet raya). Guess what brand... swatch! I still haven't found the right one for me. Hhmm..

2. A new handphone - I really loveee the Nokia 5800 ExpressMusic. IPhone what? I seriously don't buy all the IPhone craze. A handphone is still a handphone. It's not like you can take a shower using that phone, as previously claimed by an ad I watched. And yeah, the Nokia 5800 is still a handphone but I so love it!

      3. Broadband connection - Haha. This doesn't sound right. Who wishes for broadband right? Okay, so people who don't have internet access will probably want this. I already have 24-hour access at home, so why wish? Well, the reason I want broadband is to prepare myself to go back to my university (name of university will remain confidential since it will hurt the reputation of that said university. Haha. Mcm korg tak tau je kn). I have heard from current students there that the internet is still slow, probably even slower than before. This even without our much loved DC++! Dah la next year ade FYP and FYDP lagi. The internet will be very important for me. Well, aside from facebook-ing and updating my blog that is. *wink wink*

     4. Modify my car, somehow. I don't have that creativity when it comes to cars. A car is for me to drive from one place to another. That's all. But, I would like to see some change in him. (wuu~ him eh? ;P) Haa! An idea just popped out of my head. Can I modify my MyVi to become a Suzuki Swift? (FYI, Suzuki Swift is soooo my dream car!)

     5.

     6.

Okay, this doesn't look like a wishlist. There aren't even five items in the list. It looks like I don't really fantasize much. Biasa laa. Orang keje kn. Tade mase nk daydream. Hee. However, if I did buy all these, it would probably cost me about...jeng jeng jeng... RM110000. Fine, let's cut out the Swift fantasy and the total would be around RM2000. But still, where on earth am I going to get that amount of money? Well, that's a question I hope I can find the answer to. Cheers!

kes tade keje

Last night, I followed my mom to her friend's house and this is what I did when I was bored waiting.

I look like I'm in some kind of comic strip. Cool!~

This is one of the pictures during my open house the other day;

This pic looks so nostalgic. Hee

Here is a picture of me and Mokte, pretending to be models. I like this one ;)

This last picture is of me; bajet cute. Haha. Seriously. Tak bajet pon. Mokte wanted to take a picture of me, so I just posed. Lalalala~

I loveee the flowers in this picture. So cute ;)

So, this was what I did. Editing pictures. Try guessing what did I use to edit them?

....

Photoshop?

....

I guess there are no other guesses you can make right?

Okay, okay. I used my two-month old camera. Cool, huh?

Books I've Read Part 1

It's been 5 months already. Time moves so fast! And internship has gotten boring and boring everyday. One way I make it through my day is by reading novels. Hee. The books I've read so far are:

1. Remember Me? by Sophie Kinsella
   
2. Twilight by Stephanie Meyer
   
3. New Moon by Stephanie Meyer
4. Eclipse by Stephanie Meyer
5. Breaking Dawn by Stephanie Meyer
6. The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks
7. Mercy by Jodi Picoult
8. The Tenth Circle by Jodi Picoult
9. A Walk to Remember by Nicholas Sparks
   
10. 
    

Okay, tak sampai sepuluh lagi, but that is quite a lot, considering the fact I only read the books at work. What does that say about what I've been doing? I'll let you answer that. Sekarang tgh fikir nak bace buku ape plak. Running out of books to read (most books from the list are my sister's). Hhmm. Let me think and I'll get back to you about this. Later!

P.S. I dunno why I have this sudden urge to update my blog.

sLEepY

>Don’t sleep. Don’t sleep. Don’t sleep! Can’t somebody just pinch me right now? I don’t know why I have been feeling really sleepy these couple of days. I think I have enough sleep. I mean, sometimes I sleep at 11pm. If you follow UTP time, that’s really early. Anyways, I guess the reason I always feel sleepy is because I have to study all these materials. The P&IDs and PFDs are okay since they are quite interesting but when I have to read about heat transfer (again! Like it wasn’t enough studying it for one semester) and other boring reading stuff, I get really sleepy. I need coffee, I need Nescafe! Haha..

I played futsal last night and it was fun. The game ended a draw, like 11-11 or something like that. Kinda lost count considering the number of goals we scored. We played for about 1 hour and boy, it was tiring! At first I played in attacking role, but when I got tired of running up and down the field (sometimes I supported the defense), I changed positions with the keeper. You think being the keeper is easy? Huh! Think again. It doesn’t involve a lot of running but the saves are sometimes quite painful. One time, the ball hit my face. I lost count of how many times they kicked the ball and hit my ankles. But it was worth it. It was fun to let it all out once in awhile.

Now, there was a funny story last night. Some of us went for supper after the game at a nearby restaurant. While we were waiting for our food, we talked a bit and suddenly;

Friend 1: Eh, tu bukan artis ke tu?

(pandang ke arah sane)

Saye yg mmg kurang tahu psl celebrity tanah air: Mane2? Sape lak tuu??

Friend 2: Alaa, sape tah.. Aidit and Bell.

Saye yg mmg kurang tahu psl celebrity tanah air: Haa? Sape? Tak knl ponn..

Friend 3: Alaa, Bell Ngasri. Ngn Aidit Marcello..(kut)

Saye yg mmg kurang tahu psl celebrity tanah air: Oh, Bell Ngasri ke tu? Cm laen jee..(cube tgk muke)

(tetibe sorg abg pandang ke arah ktorg)

Abang-bajet-PR-pgg-kamera-SLR: Haa, adek2..nak amek gmbr ke? Meh la cni..

Kami: (muke blur) Errr…knape ttbe abg tu suh kte g sane tu?

Abang-bajet-PR-pgg-kamera-SLR: Meh la…Japg nk balek da nie..

Kami: …..

After they left, we were laughing our heads off. I mean, if we really wanted to take a picture with those freakin’ ‘famous’ celebrities, we would have jumped in an instance. There was no need to offer us to take pictures with them. OFFER US. Shouldn’t it be the other way round, like say… WE ASKED for the pictures? Gosh! What has the world become?

There’s still like 29 weeks and two days for the internship period to be over. There’s still a long way to go. One of the main reasons that I couldn’t wait for intern was so that I could run away from HIM. Yes, HIM. That’s one wish fulfilled.

P.S. I was looking at my side mirrors the whole time I was typing this post. Ngahahaha..

Lalala

I’m soooo sleepy. This is really weird because I have been sleeping early for the last couple of days. I guess this is what you call boredom. There’s no one to talk to since everyone is older, wiser and busier than me. The last part is important. Hee. I’ve been reading about heat transfer the last couple hours. No wonder I’m feeling really hungry. Studying uses a lot of energy. I have been given another task but I’ve finished that task. I still have a lot to cover for this heat transfer. The moment I start studying, my eyes will go all sepet (it is already like that to begin with. I have a bit of my grandma’s Chinese blood I guess) and I start to doze off. It’s hard to pretend that you’re studying when you’re actually sleeping. Heh.
I’m constantly counting down to the end of the day, the end of the week, the end of the month and finally the end of the internship. It is a new learning experience but I love the studying environment more. Can I be a student like… forever? I’ll need to find one rich husband to support me.
Oh, why is the time moving so slow today? I just can’t wait for lunch since I’m so hungry

…………..

It’s 3.49pm. When is this long day going to be over? Have dozed off a couple of times already. My hands are so itchy to play the O.C. episodes on my laptop here. But since my place is so strategic; my table is facing the entrance (my back is, so people can probably see what I’m doing on my laptop/PC) and someone’s table is facing the back of mine, so he can have a clear view of what I’m doing with my lappy. Oh, but I forgot! My PC has these quite little side mirrors (the PC’s previous owner put it there, I guess); two to be exact. One is facing the entrance, so that I can see if there is anyone walking in, and the other one is facing the part of the office that I can’t see, where my back is facing. Cool, kan? Ehe
I will be playing futsal tonite. I kinda like playing it. It’s a new hobby. Oh, I just wanna go home.

Someone's someone

I don’t know how many times I’ve dozed off today and it’s just 12pm. I still have half a day to go before I can go home. So, to avoid myself from falling asleep, I’m now pretending to do a very important assignment when in fact I’m writing a blog post. SShh. Don’t tell anyone, okay? My supervisor is off to a meeting so I don’t really have anything to do besides studying the PFDs of the plant. It’s very complicated and confusing, so I’m resting for awhile. Yesterday was the first time I went on site. To tell you the truth, I was so excited! But to go in, you have to wear these one-size-too-big PPEs, such as coverall and boots. I feel like an elf wearing a giant’s clothes. Okay, so that was a hyperbola but it is big. The coverall is okay, I guess. It’s just my fault that I’m skinny as a stick. The boots, however, are just too big. If there was an emergency and it involved running, those boots won’t be following me back to safety (it means I’ll take off the boots and run. That was an indirect sentence. Hehe). I’m going to ask for a different size once the other trainees have finished their interns since there wasn’t any left in my size the other day.

Oh, I kind of ran out of the topic right? Anyway, after settling a few things, it was time to go in. We went to the units where my department or group was in charge of. My supervisor showed and explained to me about how they were connected and so on. It would be confusing if you didn’t do a little bit of reading and studying, so thank god I did. I also saw a clearer picture when seeing them in real life. Those things were like 20 times the size in pictures. Or maybe 100 times the size. It was amazing. It was also scary. Since, we are dealing with crude oil which are flammable, anything could happen. You could get exposed to dangerous gases, things might be falling from the sky in the plant and so on. And then, there is the fact that I was the only few girls at the site compared to the hundreds of guys there. No need to explain that. But it was fun. An experience I’ll never forget. One thing I’ll never forget was seeing the inside of a furnace. A furnace is basically used to heat the feed before entering the distillation column. The only thing I saw inside the furnace was red hot fire. Cool right?

P.s. If you’re wondering about the title, it’s nothing really. I’m just known here as someone’s someone. If you get what I mean.

Yes, I’m a Trainee!

It has been a week since I started my intern, and boy, it’s tiring. Even if what I did was just sitting in the office all day and do nothing (I’m supposed to read some materials but it is just so boring that I fell asleep a couple of times. It feels like study week all over again. Aiyayay~). Well I did follow my colleagues to a meeting (which I didn’t understand one bit) near the plant site. But that was it.

Since this is officially my 2^nd week in the office, I’m compelled to write this post mostly because I’m getting used to this working environment. It is quite a laidback environment. You can go in and out of the office as you want (I always thought that you can only go out during lunch break) as long as you come at 8 and leave at 5 since there’s this card you have to swipe every time you enter the compound.

To tell you the truth, my supervisor is not around to boss me, give me tons of workloads and force me to work extra hours in the plant. I’m soooo looking forward to that! (This shows how bored I am) Luckily, his colleagues that are under the same department as me has given me a few reading materials for me to study. And it’s all about distillation. Distillation this, distillation that. I’ll probably die after hearing that words for 8 months. Haha. Please laugh with me. I’m trying to make a bad joke.

It’s just 10.45am. There’s still two hours and 15 minutes before lunch break. Oh, I have a new hobby. COUNTDOWNS. I have developed a passion of counting down, whether to lunch time or to the time to go home since it’s still early days in the office and there’s nothing to do. So let me just continue counting down, okay?

10 Movies/Shows that Remind Me

1. Football
2. Gol & Gincu
3. Heroes
4. Sindarela
5. Chuck
6. Yes Man
7. Kami
8. Sepi
9. Eagle Eyes
10. Bolt

Finally Home!

After a very extended stay at UTP after my last paper, I finally headed home yesterday. And I'm gonna stay here for the next 8 months. weeee~ Don't be jealous! The packing part was easy. It seemed that there was not much to pack, but when it came to putting the stuff into the car, it was a nightmare! Thank god I changed cars, if not, some of the stuff would probably have to be tied on to the roof. ngahh!

As most of you would know, I stayed an extra three days in UTP. Crazy, right? But it was worth it. Here's what I did during that time.

Date: 22nd May 2009,
Time:6.30pm-11.30pm
Location: Lumut & Manjung

Right after my last paper, Transport Phenomena (scary name for a subject, right?), me & my blockmates (ignore the grammar mistake) went to eat at Lumut. Those that followed were; Ella, Odah, Syaji, Paah, Nana, Leeya, Fahim, Mokte, Ain, Min, Embun & Sayang. Makan besar kat Teluk Muruh! Woaah~ besh.



Then, we went go-carting at Manjung. To be honest, that was my first time! I did ride one at Genting earlier this year, but that can be counted out as the go-kart was sooo slow! After 7 laps, I realized I'm in the wrong career path. I should have opted to become a F1 driver. Now, that's a missed oppurtunity. Heh.

Time: 12.00am-2.00am
Location: Bilik Mya

After arriving at UTP and settling down for awhile, I went to Mya's room, along with Paah. Tup2, Along pon nk dtg so that was great! Boley lepak2 before kna split for 8 months. Ish3. We watched the funniest birthday prank video (ehem2 Paah) and pictures and also gossiped a bit. Hehe.

Date: 23rd May 2009
Time: From the time I woke up until 7.00pm
Location: My room

I started packing and then reminiscing. Ayok~ I found lots of stuff that made me remember and by around 3.00pm, there was a bad view from my window. No need elaboration on that. To summarize in one word of that day: BORING.

Time: 9.00pm-2.00pm
Location: OldTown & Shogun Batu Gajah

The location sums it all up! Hee. Me along with Mokte, Nana & Paah went to eat at OldTown and also gossiped a bit. Girls, thats what they always do. Besides shopping that is. Lalala~ After that, we went to sing our lungs out. It was fun!!

Time: 3.00am-6.30am
Location: Ameeth

Spending the last night with my other gang. The scandalous ones right? You know who you are! Haha. We just talked and talked and talked and talked. Oh, and made fun of each other. I'm so gonna miss that. Huu.

Date: 24th May 2009
Time: 3.30pm-9.00pm
Location: Kuala Sepetang, Taiping

Due tot the fact that I didn't sleep the whole night yesterday, and ended up sleeping at 8 in the morning today, my day started a bit late. Hee. I woke up at 12pm and 'lalala'ed away 'til 3.30pm because thats when we left for Taiping (we: me, mya, pudin & kak unknown. lupe name da. hehe). We went there just to eat the famous Mee Udang Mak Teh (?) and it was quite worth it. There was lots of udang inside the mee. The other reason we went there because my senior wanted to fulfill his wish of going there before graduating. Wish fulfilled right? Hehe.

(Later, pegi maple due kali satu mlm~ ayok)

Date: 25th May 2009
Time: 4.00pm-9.00pm
Location: McD Manjung & Lumut

This trip was purely for the reason of wanting to watch the sunset. Mmg tade keje kn? Hehe.


So, that was how I spent my last days in UTP.

P.S. I got a speeding ticket on the way back yesterday. Haha. That was unavoidable. I have been really lucky (and I mean REALLY lucky) before as I always got away with it. But yesterday was not a lucky day. To be honest, I'm afraid of the police and getting stopped for speeding, but yesterday I was feelingless. In fact, here's a snippet of my conversation with a policeman:

Pakcik Polis yg hensem: Wah, 131km/j nie. Lajunye bawak?
Saye yg bajet cumel: Hee.. (Tgh cari alasan) Sbb byk brg kut?
Pakcik Polis yg hensem: Eh, klu byk brg, lagi slow la bwk..
Saye yg bajet cumel: ....

Haha. I'm really bad at lying. But whatever. I'll pay the ticket later. I keep forgetting that I got a ticket like it's no big deal! Someone should remind me. Seriously, driving the Vios at 131km/hr is like driving a MyVi at 110km/hr. There's no difference! So, don't blame me. ;P

(I'll upload the pics later)

10 Songs that Remind Me

1. Munajat Cinta - The Rock
2. Hey There Delilah - Plain White Tee's
3. Fall for You - Secondhand Serenade
4. Barney's Theme Song
5. The Click Five - Empty
6. Paling Comel - Achik & Nana
7. Sinaran - Shiela Majid
8.

Oh, it looks like I'm stuck at 8 for now. It shows that I'm forgetting. That's a good sign. I'll probably get inspiration later.

Post-Exam, Pre-Internship

Wow, it has been quite some time since my last post. Its always like this. I will have the passion to write in my blog after the exams, then when I come back to UTP to start the new semester, it all starts to go away. Blame UTP's internet connection, okay? It's slower than a snail, I tell you!

The exams this year was quite okay for me, I guess. My study week was two longggg weeks. It even came to a point where I got tired of studying. I had to do a lot of catching up during the study week because I was really lazy and was busy with lots of lab reports/etp stuff/assignments to go to class and really listen (most of the time, I came for the attendance only. hee) Hopefully, my effort during the study week paid off and the results will be satisfying for me.

I'm still stuck here in UTP because there are a few things that have to be settled before I go. Will be missing lots of seniors because they will be graduating and some will be going for their last semester in UTP next semester. Of course, during that time I will be doing my internship in Malacca. Can't wait. Staying at home full-time! Yeahh!

I'm almost done packing. Naseb baek tuka kete. My stuff won't fit into my cute little MYVi. Ngeh3. Still got 3 bags of clothes to fill. Imagine that! Haha.

Oh, got to go. I haven't showered yet and its already 3pm. Ooops~ I had a late last night and I slept and 8am this morning. That's another story to tell. Hee

'Till then~
Good Luck for your internship guys. See you in 8 months!

Downer

I feel like screaming my lungs out right now.

Aaaa...
But before I continue my screaming, let me tell why. I just finished my final exams. Okay, that doesn't seem right. Shouldn't I be jumping for joy? I should, but I'm not. You see, this has been the worst finals ever! Most of the papers I sat for was really hard, and I didn't even have time to pick myself up after each of the downers since the papers were back to back. Imagine sitting for FOUR three-hour papers (except one of the which was just 2 hours) in FIVE days. There was certainly no rest period between any of the papers. Then, this is ironic. The gap between the second last and last paper is SEVEN-freaking days!! Haha! It has it's own freaking study week. But after sitting for that paper during the finals which was just a like an hour ago, it doesn't matter if you gave me a month to study for this paper, because the questions were unexpectable! Haih. I had high hopes for this paper and now it turns out to be another downer. I was planning to go and have some fun now, but all the mood has gone away. I'd rather just stay in my room and sleep 'til like there's no tomorrow. So, let me do that..

'til then. Toodles

Friends

What does that word really mean? Do friends lie to each other, back stab each other, pretend as though you like each other even when you don't or pretend to like their presence when they are the last person you want to be with? For me, it is. To this one person. I used to be quite close to her but now, everything just seems so fake. It's like she hates my guts so much, but I don't know why.

There was one thing she did that really hurt me so much. She lied to me. Straight to my face. Lying is one thing. It works when you're really good at covering it. But this one, there was no way to cover it. Because, in the end, I would still find out.

The story goes like this. She lied to me and I found out. I was so hurt. I felt so down and frustrated. I kept crying. Everything just seemed so wrong. Everything that didn't go my way would get my critic. It was all because of her (and at that same time, him). That week was the worst week of my life. With all the tests and quizzes that I had to face. Somehow, I was strong enough to survive it.

I hate her but I pretend as though there is nothing wrong between us (I hate him but...). Life just goes on. No matter how hurt you are of that someone.

Moody

I wasn't in a very good mood yesterday. Thoughts of many things just crashed in my head and my brain malfunctioned for most of the day. I was really sensitive, my tears pouring down like heavy rain. I was feeling that way when I was writing the last post.

I was mad at him. I was sad because of him. My heart ached for what he did to me. I felt as if I was sitting there and clapping my hands to a silent sound; only my hand was doing the clapping. Not his. I would get excited about something and my immediate reaction is to tell him and there he is, not caring at all. But every time he tells me, I smile from end to end. I react as if it was the most funniest thing that happened or most weirdest thing or whatever it is. Sometimes, he would just move on to another topic and leave the previous one hanging, that is after hours and hours of leaving me hanging, waiting in the dark. I would be sad but acted like nothing happened.

But yesterday was just the pinnacle of all pinnacles. I just couldn't take it anymore. It was as if he was treating me like I'm a lifeless doll, like I didn't have feelings. So, I just lost it. I lost my mood. There was something else on my mind that was bothering me too but that was just sitting by the sidelines. He said he was sorry and I accepted his apology.

Then, he did it again. He started to care again. He started to say things that... I just don't know how to explain it. 'He's doing it again.' That's what I said to myself. All of this is just confusing me. Sometimes he cares, sometimes he doesn't. Can't he just make up his mind? Should I give this guy a chance? If I were to compare him to the other guys that tried to win me, he's losing. Quite bad. But he sure does win in other departments. I'm not gonna tell which. Hee~

For now, I'm happy the way this has turned out to be. I mean, he's trying to keep my feeling's in check. I just don't like the fact he's still playing with my feelings. What is it with guys?

Toodles.

I Can't Read Minds

I have this tendency to attract people that expect me to read their minds. Especially when it comes to that. You know... that. I'm quite sick and tired of this. The latest one is the most mind boggling of them all. I thought I knew it but what I thought was wrong. I think. See! Even I don't know what is running in that mind of his. It's like he cares but he doesn't. He gives you signs of jealousy and all that but then later he acts as if you mean nothing to him.

How do you decipher all this? What does it really mean? He makes me so insecure. Really insecure. No one has ever made me feel this insecure in my life. Sometimes, I think he is for real while other times I think he's just playing with me. He just wants to step on my gorgeous little head. Using me for his own good like when he needs someone to talk to when he's lonely. I liken the way he treats me as his punching bag. When you punch it, you will feel satisfied while that punching bag will get hit after hit. Cool, huh?

It really hurts that he has to do this to me. I cry every time I feel insecure. At this rate, I would probably run out of tears by I'm 30. My eyes are as swollen as a cute panda's eyes. The funny thing is even though he makes me cry silently at night, in my sleep, I still laugh at his jokes. I still wait anxiously for his messages. I still think of him every single moment. It's true what they say. Love is blind.

Toodles.