Insomnia

Gahhhh!!

I hate it when this happens. I can't freakin' sleep! And it's all my @#$%^& fault!

Dah tau betapa kuatnye kesan caffeine ke atas diri sendiri, pegi minum sebelum nak tidor wat ape haa?

Okay, technically, I wasn't drinking it before going to sleep. I drank it during dinner. Had dinner at OldTown with my family last night. And I drank my favourite drink, ice blended mocha. *drooling now* And it wasn't even pure coffee for crying out loud!!!!

Oh, the effect of caffeine is so strong on me -_- I've been doing the GLEE series marathon all morning. And now it's 4.30 am and I still can't sleep! I'm also feeling hungry now. Gahhhhh.

Lapar lapar lapar lapar lapar lapar lapar.

Lalalalalalapar!

Okay, serious da takde keje nih.

Can someone please sing me a lullaby until I go to sleep? Pretty please? With Kisses on TOP? Okay, I meant the chocolate. Not smooching.

Next time, I'm soooo not drinking caffeine before I sleep. I need to get a restraining order from them. Gahhhhh. T_T Someone should hit me in the head so hard 'til my eyes pop out if I want to drink another caffeine-infested drink before sleeping. -_-

Hard to Say No

It's always hard for me to say no. 

I always say yes.

I wish I can sometimes say no.

I wish I can.

Happy New Year 2010!

Okay okay. I'm still too early. There's about an hour to go 'til the clock strikes 12. I can't believe another year has gone by. However, I lagiiii can't believe that my internship is going to end next week! But that's another story to tell. This year, I turn 21. Well, barely. I'm 21 years, 1 month and 26 days old to be exact. Haha. I don't want to admit that I'm old. As usual. ;P

A lot of things have happened this year. Good memories, bad memories; mostly bad ones. How I wish I can just wish them away, but I can't. That's life. Properly described below.

Since it's the new year, let's do what everyone does. Those new-year-resolution-things. Gahh. I like!! Lagi lagi if kena buat list. Tak tau kenapa I like listing things in my blog -_-

Let's do it! (Kita buat countdown nak? Nampak menarik skett. Haha. Let's try 10. Tapi macam tak cukup je. Gahh)

My 2010 New Year's Resolution

10. Forget the past. Wahhh. Masok masok list terus serious. T_T But, yeah. I'll try to forget. It will be hard since I once considered that person to be an important person in my life, someone that I could trust. And somehow, the trust was misused. Everything was just a lie. Period. However, since this is the 10th item on the list, you can see how I don't really emphasize this resolution because for me, forgetting means I have forgiven (I can really forget, trust me) and I don't want to forgive, even in the near future because I can't forget. Okayh. Ayat dah berbelit. Sile go to next point.

9. Jadi budak baik rajin pandai. Since next year is my final year in UTP, I seriously have to get serious! I do study (Tak caye tanya roommate!) but mostly I study last minute and I only focus on enjoying. Lagi lagi last semester. But that was forgiven since I was not in the best of condtions. Huh. Oh, and I actually did pretty well! Looks like I have to get myself into a lot of trouble since I strive under the worst conditions x_X

8. Change for the best. Wow. Still in a serious mood, huh? I have changed a little since last semester. Maybe that was just the turning point. Maybe I was tired of all the !@#$% happening in my life at that time. And even in the past. People may say I have changed physically, but I have changed emotionally as well. Tapi tak tau lah ape. Rase je macam dah berubah. Haha. Perangai masih kanak kanak lagi. I would like to try to become a better person, someone useful, someone nicer (tak cukup baik ke nih?), ape lagi eh? To cut it short, change to be a better person ;)

7. Go on lots of holidays. Haha. Ada ke nih jadi resolution? Tapi betol ape. Next year is the last year you can actually play around. After that, you have to start working, and life becomes a bit boring. Insert = internship. Hee. I usually get tired after going home from work. Suddenly, I like spending my nights sleeping and facebook-ing since it does not involve me to move alot. Oh, P.S. I Love You. Eh silap, P.S. I Miss My Besties :(

Can't wait for our first holiday of the year. LANGKAWI!

6. Decide my future. This internship period has made me think a lot about my future. I have come to know what I want to be and I don't think I want to be doing what I have been doing during the 8 months. Kita tengoklah cemane nanti eh? Still unsure. Boley tak google je? "What does Nadia want to be when she grows up?"

Ooops. Tak membantu pulak T_T

5. Be more friendly to others. I may nampak macam ni, tapi I sebenarnya pemalu. Gahaha. Tapi betol laa. Hee. (Ni filler je, taktau nak tulis ape. But seriously!)

4. Patuh kepada ibu bapa dan agama. Oh, ni lagi satu. I may nampak macam ni, tapi masa kecik kecik, sangat rebellious! Woo. Sangat degil dan suke melawan cakap dan suke gadoh dengan adek adek. Tu yang ganas sket tuh. (Ganas ke? Haha). Tapi da besar da kurang la. Keep up with it! Oh yeah, kena patuh kepada agama. Sembahyang wajib cukup. Puasa wajib penuh. Okay okay. Time tak cuti jela kena penuh. Kalau da cuti nak wat cemana? Korang ni pon......

3. Save for the benefit of your future. I have managed to save a bit from the internship allowance plus scholarship. But I should save more. When I was younger, I loved to menabung! But ever since I got a car,  it has been quite hard. Minyak tuh satu. Pastu jadi kaki jalan lak. As most of you might NOT know, I love to drive. It's a hobby. I don't mind driving non-stop. I just like it. Lagi lagi if I'm alone and I can turn on my radio full blast! Karaoke ahh dalam kete sorang sorang. *This is a very embarrassing habit. Sile kurangkan next year*

2. Please! Less shopping! Ni lagi satu. When I was younger, mane suke shopping shopping. I remembered when I was in secondary school, I like to waste my time at a nearby shopping mall in bookstores and CD stores. Books and CDs were the only things that I bought. I was soooo a geek. Cute geek la tapi ;P But now, kaki shopping. Semua nak dibeli. Lagi-lagi time YES nih. "Mentang mentang tengah YES nih, semua la YES!" Bak kata Min. Haha. My mother is already complaining that I have too much clothes. Eh, banyak ke?? Tapi kan, da perempuan. Nak wat cemana kan? *wink wink*

Image for illustration only. Haha

1. Eat Healthily, Live Healthily a.k.a. EXERCISE! Hahahaha. This is the most non-logical resolution I ever made. I'm so not the exercising type. Tak caye sile tanya roommate. Haha. Kena lagi my roommate. I already bought a new pair of sneakers so that should bring up the spirit. Tengokla cemane. Jom jom jogging nanti? :D

Okayh, that's it. By the time I publish this post, it's already 12 am. So,

Happy New Year 2010!!!

P.S. Tak sangka! I managed to fill my Top 10!